Yuppy, !!!! Holiday & Vacation

Hur,..... Finally, the test passed, whether if good or bad result, I almost did my best as I could. It wasn't easy too much for the man who worked 3 days before test began. I confess I slept in the reading exam, KKK. Moreover, I lost my conscious during the test, well I really don't know I did it well or not. And the second exam was coming, that was writing test, the most hardest thing in the world, Hurrrr. Fortunately, I took a nap between the test, during everyone went to preregistration, I slept. Cool,...
Well, I believed I did it's very well on the writing exam, but I couldn't ensure myself can pass to next level, cause my attendance was so poor. And I simply believe in my exam, not teacher's believe, right?
However, everything had passed, I'm free from the studing, but I was wrapped by the working instead,hur,...
Anyway I'm ok, because I wanted to buy some stuff, so I worked. I don't wanna asked the support from my family anymore. Tough Guy,....(may be sooner,hehehe)
Then, next week I'll start working more than 4 days a week, I guess I'll have enough money to buy what I want in the 3-4 months, I wish that. And I swear I'll continue study the English. Eventually, I'll get the adequate tofel score to apply the next step of my life.

I wish I could get it.
Otto, the guy who has too plenty things to do in NY.

This is my new Objective

Hi, myself.
I would like to tell you please don't forget why you came to New York. Your dream is quiet bigger than you think, Probably sometimes you can feel too heavy on your shoulder, but you have carry it. You can't let it go away from your life. You have to ruin your life until you realize yourself next time when you will understand you lost too many thing in your life by pursue your dream. Is it stupid idiot?
One of my close friend once he told me what is your dream, simply succeed in your carrier, or reach to the goal, grab the trophy? But have you thought about what you have to spend to reach that point. Of course, in the past he was the one who seriously follow his dream too, but now he changed to another. Likewise, success without families participate, it's nothing. I didn't really understand his speech at that time. Now I knew what he said. Now he has enjoy his live in somewhere in Thailand with his families and inherit his family company. I'm happy with him too. I want to be like him too................................................................just sometime merely.
On the other hand, I can't stop to do it. Although, everything are not under my control. such as find the pin in the ocean. but I strong enough to handle it. Ok, this is my new objective, make a money for my stuff(sorry about my stuff cost isn't cheap, Damn it) and improve my fcuking english, make it better, and don't stop to pursue my fcuking dream,ok?
Live alone isn't very easy, It's exactly hard. However, I still enjoy NY Life even it's so lonely. I believe it getting me stronger and wilder. I'm back.

Otto, in the moment of unconsciousness.

Back from Black Friday,(-_-"

This was, what I saw,...
Time was almost 2.00am in the darkness of NYC. You couldn't saw even your hand. It was very crazy cold atmosphere, but you could hear some step voice gradually louder and coming. You could see the guy walk not slow not fast, but in the miserable weather like this, rarely find someone walked alone instead of sleeping near the fire place.
He was not tall too much, approximate around 183 cm.(6 feet.) He wore only old thin T-shirt and cover by not thicker winter coat. His hair was totally BLACK, a little bit cover his shoulder, blew into the wind's breath. Every step, he left the little sound, and little bit foot print on the ground. He wasn't walk too fast or too slow, that seemed as he preserved his energy like a wild wolf that will release the energy only when hunting the victim. beside that don't think about let's him walk faster. I believe he was a most stranger, I have seen in my entire life.

This was the Fact.
the guy walked alone among the freezing weather to go to best buy store, cause tomorrow was a black Friday. Thus his objective was reserved the position to buy the new Desktop. so he came there around 11.00pm. the store is opened around 4.00 am.(my relative told me that), but the truth was everywhere were crowed by the shopper. they made a longer precession than you can't imagine. it was too late, he was yelling in his mind. Moreover, he didn't think the weather would be cold like this. So, he didn't prepare thick winter coat. Of course, it was too cold, who the hell could run. might be his appearance look so cool, but in fact he was shaking, and he couldn't wasted his any energy anymore. And he lost the way, he didn't know where is the subway gate. poor guy...


I was this guy.

Otto, the cool guy who just came back from the Black Friday.

Thanks for giving(Parade)

Hey, Today is Thu, Nov. 22 2007 usually Americans call today "Thanksgiving". I don't really know what was this day from, (Probably I know, but it's not engage to my story.) Anyway, today me, Kyunghee, and Yuette went to see the parade around Central Park since 9.00am, that was a huge mistake for me, cause it was too late. We struggled in the subway station. We couldn't get out.
However, after almost 20 minute in subway station, among the voice over our head yelling when the parade pass through, it was miserable. Eventually, we could get out.
The street was so crowed by people, absolutely there were kids more than amateur. We saw plenty of Big Balloon, for example, Scoopy-Doo, Pokemon, Kitty, Macy's(it was a totally commercial parade, Damn it!) And you know, the main character Balloon of this year was SHREK. Um,... Shrek just made into the film less than 10 years, but it bacame to the main balloon of thanksgiving parade, um,... it might means; no matter what you are, no matter how old are you, if you are good adequate, you deserve to get the right thing.
The most favorite Balloon for me is Pink rabbit, look like a little bit sadism, but it could turn around 360' and then keep going. I think it was better than just balloon flow in the air. And the last finale was Santa cause. The parade used the time for 4 hours, since around 7.00 to 11.00 am. It was a good experience for me again. At this moment, I was a re-birth.

After that we went to Central park, leaf were changing to the red color, and fallen like winter arrive. it was a beautiful. Central park in my imagination was a old park, very large, and nothing inside, but it was precise wrong idea. Central Park looked very bright, and charming. Probably it wasn't true, but today I was quite happy even though I lacked of sleep cause yesterday my work place's thanksgiving party.(I got mp3,and the big bottle of red wine)
Furthermore, NY life was very exciting,and fascinated. I still alive in NY and getting deeper in love with NY life. Even this winter is coming and I still alone...

Otto, the alone guy who ever saw the thanksgiving parade, at least once in his life.

Alien in NY !

It was a pretty nice to has this experience. 3 days ago, I found the article about the Acting workshop in Manhattan, especially FREE! I confess, I didn't interest to the acting very well, but the opportunity to study with real native speaker, and the atmosphere of the class was fascinated me to go there.
Obviously, I got a little bit nervous, even I have lived here around 1 year, but I still feel my English is so POOR. Anyway, the most hardest thing is merely the first step. So I breathed in deeply then walk into the building.
The building wasn't a quite old, I felt something wrong like a murderer waiting for me walked into his trap by myself. Like one of suck horror film I saw name "fear.com", I guess.
I was a first student who came to the class. The teacher was Italian, before that I thought she was Japanese. I inferred from her name. I wouldn't mention about her name,ok?
When the class began, there were 3 students in the class. it was a ridiculous, cause I think it was a free class, not far away, there should have more student than 3 peoples. However, I got 1 more after class started around 30 minutes.
Almost first hour, we did relaxing only, I like this way of relaxing, everyone close their eyes and follow what was teacher said. First, I felt a little bit embarrassed, I was new here, alien, and been the only one who hadn't had any experience like this before, but after awhile, I believed I can do that. preciously, I had to pay attention every single words teacher, but I did it very well.
The atmospheres were nice, smooth, and funny. I like teacher. She tried to push up our and understood my poor pronunciation. I confess I couldn't understand whole scenario that she gave me. It was a scenario of the movie named when Hally met Sally. Of course, once I have saw it, but it had Thai subtitle, and also I totally forgot what the story talked about.
Eventually, 2 hours were gone faster than I thought. it was a great experience for me. I can make a conversation with almost real native speaker. Unbelievable, they understood me too(or might be pretend to be cause felt pity to the poor guy,T-T)
Anyway, if I have a chance to join another workshop again, I will ensure register again. I hope to know more about the real American's ways, culture, and etc.
Thanks a lot
Otto, most handsome alien guy in NY.

what the hell is the girl?

How do I understand the woman? woman is the most unpredictable in this stupid world. hurrrrrr----r Anyway, I'm a cool guy and I deserve to get the woman, immediately. However, I don't know what she thinking of me. it might be merely friend, or just acquaintance. She didn't think too far as I. Our Background were totally different from each other. language, culture, personal style, individual character. On the other hand, I still believe you suppose to be my girl.
first, I'm free,and always open for any girl too. So if you don't pay attention. Probably, you're going to lose me. As you know, I'm handsome(not much,but okey,OK?)I also had many female friends here. I could go every where, be careful.
Second, I wouldn't waiting for only 1 girl. Of course I interesting to you, but don't think about I'll looking only you. As long as you and I, we're friend. I still have the right to find the girl.
Third, Time pass so fast, don't let it take away your mature. if you said"I can remember that day when I was 19 years old." it means you're too old. only the old guys spend the time to remind their life. "yes once in my life I did it." idiot! I ensure I wouldn't be like that. Thus, everyday I try to make it special day for myself. here is U.S.A., that nobody care each other. I can do whatever I want as long as I didn't interfering another invisible barrier.
to conclude. I'm a charming guy, also never stop looking for a girl(of course, I still don't have, yet). Moreover, I have doing very well for every day of my life. I strongly believe you should love me. this is the way I am.
stupid ideal (-_-"

I'm still alive,

I'm still alive here. Obviously, I have had a tremendous happy time here. I found fucking varieties people here. Some of them, they were fucking great, some annoyed me. ANyway, I can stand. Sometimes I pondered to my life, what the hell I'm doing here. it wasn't easy for the immigrant to live here by the legal. But I wouldn't give up. I couldn't surrender like a asshole. I have to know how to deal with this fucking huge circumstance. But I was alone, winter is coming that make me feel more lonely and homesick. what do I suppose to do? I don't know, but I still believe in myself, I'm still alive, I can stand...