I'm still alive,

I'm still alive here. Obviously, I have had a tremendous happy time here. I found fucking varieties people here. Some of them, they were fucking great, some annoyed me. ANyway, I can stand. Sometimes I pondered to my life, what the hell I'm doing here. it wasn't easy for the immigrant to live here by the legal. But I wouldn't give up. I couldn't surrender like a asshole. I have to know how to deal with this fucking huge circumstance. But I was alone, winter is coming that make me feel more lonely and homesick. what do I suppose to do? I don't know, but I still believe in myself, I'm still alive, I can stand...