This is my new Objective

Hi, myself.
I would like to tell you please don't forget why you came to New York. Your dream is quiet bigger than you think, Probably sometimes you can feel too heavy on your shoulder, but you have carry it. You can't let it go away from your life. You have to ruin your life until you realize yourself next time when you will understand you lost too many thing in your life by pursue your dream. Is it stupid idiot?
One of my close friend once he told me what is your dream, simply succeed in your carrier, or reach to the goal, grab the trophy? But have you thought about what you have to spend to reach that point. Of course, in the past he was the one who seriously follow his dream too, but now he changed to another. Likewise, success without families participate, it's nothing. I didn't really understand his speech at that time. Now I knew what he said. Now he has enjoy his live in somewhere in Thailand with his families and inherit his family company. I'm happy with him too. I want to be like him too................................................................just sometime merely.
On the other hand, I can't stop to do it. Although, everything are not under my control. such as find the pin in the ocean. but I strong enough to handle it. Ok, this is my new objective, make a money for my stuff(sorry about my stuff cost isn't cheap, Damn it) and improve my fcuking english, make it better, and don't stop to pursue my fcuking dream,ok?
Live alone isn't very easy, It's exactly hard. However, I still enjoy NY Life even it's so lonely. I believe it getting me stronger and wilder. I'm back.

Otto, in the moment of unconsciousness.