disability to write it down!

Fucking Cold outside, I'm gonna die soon whether if the train doesn't come in 5 minutes. What the hell am doing here in the unbearable weather like this? I'm smoking or just breath out? Do I still have a finger, it's numb.

the upper sentences were my thinking when I went out to take a video around 1 weeks ago. Although, you don't know who is A3(Actually, it's unnecessary to mention about him) However, I ought to tell you a little about his Fucking Freezing Crazy Project. .................. ok, That's all.

I had never written any script or scenario since I came here. Fortunately, I still read. I think because I lose my ability to write down the story in my style, or almost lose it. Thus, I have to get it back as soon as possible. um,... (out of the topic, now is 3.10 am and I'm too tried from my work, but I wanna write some thing, and result is not a good writing as I can do. Might be I should sleep and refresh myself is better, Right?)

I almost reach my point to keep the money. It's just only 2ooo$ more I'll have it, My trea.....sure (Like a gollum in LOR.) Then I can get back to my own way again, or still make a money as a current slave.

Q: who is watching me?
A: only you merely know
BED TiME, Otto