I am a superstar !

Can you believe that? Some people asked me to be his actor in their 16mm B&G film project. Hurrrr, I had never even thought like that before in my entire life.
The story began from my work place. At the moment I was boring during the work. Some of customer said something to me. "Hello, Can you be our actor in the short film project, We are New york film academy's students, and we would like to ask you to help us..." At the first time I thought, what the hell is that? Is he Gay? It must be Purple Film 100 percents. I answered "let me think about it for a second."

Finally I said, Yes I'll be your actor. bla bla bla... hurrrr

Their project was a short movie I guessed around 4-5 minutes cause I counted it from their frames on the shooting book. It talk about the guy who found the paper plane from his window(obviously, I'm naked in this scene, sounds horrible,right?) and he tried to find where is it from, and what is the massage come with it? in the final, he knew it from one room in the apartment(obviously again, it's director apartment in Green point.) But he doesn't has any guts to show up. so he walk away. and think about himself. Finally, he grasp whole of his brave and run into that room. In that room, he find the other plane on the table that made from the newspaper he see some topic on the plane, it say, " to protect you, my love.(actually, I can't remember what is wrote down on the paper.) " and also the Bill Clinton face and Hirraly Clinton. and he think about something and throw the plane to the sky. All of the plane made by the Girl, she was the main actress too(She's very pretty and the sadness eyes.) That's all.

When I was in the team. I felt very familiar with every things even the 16mm film camera that I haven't touched. I knew what I wanted and what was my world. I had to get it. However, the atmosphere was very nice and funny, we talked in english and explain in English.

Here was the name of the production team.
1. Bruno-Italian-Director,Cinematographer
2. Hanna-Hungarian-Actress
3. Ricardo-Etc.-Italian
4. Sorry, I forgot your name-Lighting-Italian
5. G-supervisor-I didn't know what is your nationality.
6. Uno-roommate's Bruno-?
7. Pizza delivery guy-I thinks you're maxican-delivery pizza
8. Otto-Thai-Actor

Ps. when I said goodbye, Hanna's cheeks touched my cheek too, I knew it was simply greeting, but I felt GREAT !!
Thanks a lot to invited me
Otto

disability to write it down!

Fucking Cold outside, I'm gonna die soon whether if the train doesn't come in 5 minutes. What the hell am doing here in the unbearable weather like this? I'm smoking or just breath out? Do I still have a finger, it's numb.

the upper sentences were my thinking when I went out to take a video around 1 weeks ago. Although, you don't know who is A3(Actually, it's unnecessary to mention about him) However, I ought to tell you a little about his Fucking Freezing Crazy Project. .................. ok, That's all.

I had never written any script or scenario since I came here. Fortunately, I still read. I think because I lose my ability to write down the story in my style, or almost lose it. Thus, I have to get it back as soon as possible. um,... (out of the topic, now is 3.10 am and I'm too tried from my work, but I wanna write some thing, and result is not a good writing as I can do. Might be I should sleep and refresh myself is better, Right?)

I almost reach my point to keep the money. It's just only 2ooo$ more I'll have it, My trea.....sure (Like a gollum in LOR.) Then I can get back to my own way again, or still make a money as a current slave.

Q: who is watching me?
A: only you merely know
BED TiME, Otto

Shrink Shrank Shrunk

in the temperature below 20 degree F. I had to go to work. what the hell was that?
Even though I wore Johny, but I still felt Fucking Freezing. Moreover,my ball shrank. As you know in the Hot weather substance getting expand and Cold getting shrink. So, I thought about when I was in the university at the 1st year. Everyone called me Otto Calby, (Hurrrrr, Forget it, I won't tell anyone, how I got this name.) Anyway, If they see my ball again, right now. They must say "Otto the Calby's grand son." Hahaha
Oh my ball

,,,, Noooo...
<(Otto)>

Every thing has own its way

Ya---hoooo(I don't intend to be a commercial, ok?) As everyone know me(who know me?)
whatever, I have changed from the tube head to (Otto) the loneliness guy, and then I still didn't felling adequate for my life. A few days ago I called to citibank to check about something wrong in my account(obviously, it wasn't a good news.) I'm not sure what was the citibank's representative nationality. However, I think I couldn't understand what the hell she was talking about? Then she asked me what is my nationality? I believe in myself, probably my english still suck but I trust in myself about my english skill is almost enough to use in the particular life(I should ask her back where are you come from? Hurrrr tough girl) Anyway, it was done, my problem was fixed already. Thanks god and fuck you all citibank representative(except someone.)
Hu---Yaaaaa Let's talk about the one I need, and everybody called LOVE. Is it true? love can grow up by the cheering, I don't think so, but probably it's not true anymore. It remind me to my friend when we were studying in the university. One of my friend got the boy friend caused we pushed her and also I pushed my friend too. Finally they pushed together. hahaha So what about me? However, it must have the connection between them before every thing happened, right? without that no thing could happened.
Um,.................................. what do I have to do?....................um,.................... Let's the time reveal it.
Ps. instead of ruined another flower garden, let's make your own flower bloom.(Nana)
It's totally not my size!!! I'm _____er, ok?

Nice to meet you, the new guy and say good bye to the old one

Hi Nice to meet you. I'm Otto. I always remind I was so strong and I didn't think about you anymore. I believe that. Since the last time we met, it wasn't a long enough to make me think about you but when I knew you won't be there anymore it made me feel sad. I realized that yesterday when I saw you.

Probably, cause the champaign's degree, the loneliness of immigrant or whatever, but when I saw you it touched my heart, and might be I forgot how to breath in the moment. That why I told you "I like you." even though you answered me thanks but... It doesn't matter anymore. I think we can meet each other again but I had no idea when. This moment I have busied and my schedule was to tight. More addition, you're also going back on the end of this month. Absolutely, I wish to see you again.

Hi Good bye the old man who hided himself in mind. This is a proper time to say good bye to you. How long we've lived together? I have no idea, but time has come and you've gone. Once, I read the article talk about "every day when I wake up, I always think I'm regenerated again." I've regenerated too. And my life still have to keep going and my objective still alive. I can't stop at you, or let you be one of my loser part. Sorry about that.

Anyway, Thanks for ever been together. Hope you have a great life.

Otto